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My Destiny.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014 | 5:49 AM | 0 candies

Dear you whom i never meet and know,

This entry is just for you. The one who i miss the much. The one who i never meet before. The one who will stay by my side in future. I'll make sure, if it has been fated im married to someone, i'll let him read this entry.

I dont know who you are, what's your name, how old are you, where you are but this few days i keep thinking of you. Keep waiting for you, my destiny. The more i think of you the more i feel greed for time. What if i don't have someone like you in my life? What if i don't married until i die? What should i do? Those silly thoughts came in my mind. It keeps bothering me.

Awak, i mean mr boo,
Dalam hidup saya semuanya handdicaped. Manusia datang dan pergi meninggalkan saya. Mereka juga tinggalkan kenangan yang pahit untuk saya. Semakin dewasa saya jadi semakin takut. Takut kehilangan sesiapa. Mungkin sebab tu sampai hari ni takda siapa dalam hati saya. Sebab tiap kali saya cuba memulakan sesuatu hubungan, apa yg saya fikirkan cuma bagaimana cara hubungan itu berakhir.

Saya takda keluarga sempurna macam orang lain. Hidup saya huru-hara. Saya cuma mangsa keadaan orang dewasa. Dalam dunia ni, saya cuma ada ibu ayah dan adik saje. Im having a complicated family tree. My grandfather that used to love me passed away 5 years ago. The one who left is my greed grandmother, who used to chase me away from her sight. This year, i lost both of my grandmother and grandfather from my dad side.

For me, you are the precious things that i can treasure. I don't want nothing more than a man staying by my side forever, protecting me, comfort me, taking care of me, love me and make me happy. I am a careless person, i might forgot all the things that use, im totally a troublemaker. Sometime i forgot my phone number too. Am i childish?

If i were fated to have you,
There's lots of thing that i want to do with you. I want you to accompany me travelling, fishing, cooking, i want to play boardgame with you when you are off from work, i want to cook for you everyday. I want to hold your arm and lean my head at you shoulder when we walked on the beach. I want to hold your hands .

But inspite of all those things, im feel sorry for you too if:
I get mad easily, im saying harsh words , i act like im ignoring you, im sick.
Sorry if i will make you suffer if i caught a fever, cause usually my moms would do everything for me if im sick, she would feed me, shower me, cause everytime i sick i paralyzed. Im sorry for that also.

Tapi, disebalik semua ni,
kalau ditakdirkan awak memang tidak wujud dalam hidup saya,
Saya tetap akan tunggu awak dialam sana.

If I’m allowed once again
If I could see you again
Inside my past memories
Inside that pain
I call you.
You’re my destiny,
You’re my everything
I only look at you as
I call out to you silently
You’re my delight of all
You are my love
Even if the world changes, do you
know that I will only love you?
My destiny

Past | Future