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Imprisoning Myself.

Monday, December 1, 2014 | 3:13 AM | 0 candies

For me, the whole world looks like a big wall. Its like I'm in prison, the one who imprisoning me is myself. If only I had given one chance to let myself free, the things that i want to do is rewind the clock hand and never meet you.

Before meeting you, I define love as the sweetest things in the world. I was wrong. Totally wrong. Love is not sweet at all. Its suck. It suffocating me. I wonder how much you enjoy yourself now without me while im the only one who get hurts. Are you happy? Cause for me tomorrow is the same day as yesterday nothing changed much.

Pity me cause I dont have any special one's like everyone else do. My life is so pathetic and reckless. I don't have someone special to share my problems, When i had a crisis with my parents I don't have someone else next to me. When i feel like im missing someone , i dont have someone too.

I don't have someone to love. Somebody to miss. Im reckless. In this big world I'm lonely. I feel sorry to myself cause it had been in hell named feelings.

I dont know if I had to believe love or not. Such a waste of time. I should realize that a girl like me, nobody interested, Im not pretty, I'm too short, Im not a smart person , and I also a boring person. That's the reason why people hate me and avoiding me. What a shame for myself.

I hope you were happy always with the one you love. I hope she deserved it. I know she's more pretty than I am. She's more attractive than me. Im praying from a distance for both of you. Even im hurts.

To you,
Your last words, those cold words were I'm sorry.
You said you loved me, you said i'm the only one for you but they were all lies.
Stop acting sad as you leave.
Stop giving excuses as you leave.
Your ridiculous words.
Your words annoy me.
It was me who gave you everything but you suddenly left me.
I break down at your words once again,
the skies fall at your words as well
Your words are like a nightmare,
I don’t wanna hear it, please .
Words that ring in my ears,
words that are nailed into my heart,
Your cruel words,
your cold words
Your scarring words,
your bitter words, ..

I hate you. No lingering attachment more. Its over. Fade off.

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