Mistake
Thursday, December 11, 2014 | 9:54 PM |
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If only I haven't choose this path, I would never regret. Its the biggest mistake i've made in my life. I am a bad person. I hurt people too. If only I choose to live quietly, then this matter would never come out. For those who get hurt because of me, Im so sorry for being a reckless person in my past. Maybe it's the time for me to black out. Regarding of all those mistake that i had done, I would take all those spitefull words , you can punish me cause im punishing myself too.
I admitted that i am a pathetic person in past.
Only if i given one more chance to rewind back the day where I am given an option to choose my class, i would change my fate. Standing in art class is the biggest torture for myself. Now i realize, they need a person with talent to make art, not a person whom pretend to have talent with her hardwork. Talent is something special given by god. Hardwork is the thing that all human beings can do.That's the different between me and my classmate. At least, they can draw, can paint, all i can only do is holding my pen and studying like ordinary person.
It's finally the time that i can't endure anymore. Im falling. My life is totally a mess right now. The future that I dream, seems so dark. Why it must be me? If people done something wrong at me, they don't get punish but if i had done something wrong, i get punished immediately. There's nothing that I can change now. I had to finish it. 2015 is totally a torturing year for me. Its a punishment for me. But i will keep my promise. Graduate high school and live quietly.
And for those whom know me, Im sorry for what I may be in future.
I might pretend to be stranger, i might betray you, i might hurt you and i might abandon you but trust me i did that for both of us sake. That's the only way im treating people without giving and taking anything so that there would be no hurt and regret.
I want to re-consider what i do and what course i take carefully in future. Im doing my best.